20 Questions

What is the best decision you ever made?
To marry my husband

The one thing I most regret not doing is
Having more fun

What would you consider to be your dream job?
I have it, photographer

I wish I was more assertive when it comes to
listening, I used to be but I can't seem to pay attention anymore

The top three things I like abut myself are
Eyes, the way I care about people, and my photography

An area of my life that I am still working on is
my self esteem

The best vacation I ever took was to
Niagra Falls

Who was with you on that vacation?
Dad, Sandie, and Laura

If you could go to any restaurant right now where would you go?
Applebees

What would you order?
The apple walnut salad

Do you know what country/countries your ancestors came from?
Yes, Ireland, Scotland, and France

Would you rather live in a rural area, small town, or big city?
Small town or on a farm

How far do you live fom the town you grew up in?
2,212 miles

What circumstances led you to live were you are now?
The military then my husbands job

If you could get in the car right now with 3 days off, where would you go?
Michigan, but its too far

If you could go back and spend the day with one person from your past who would you choose?
Grandpa Burke

What do you think is the greatest invention ever?
Ofy asked me and I can't decide, but I think the car is a pretty awesome one, but so is the phone

What do you think was the most life changing moment in history?
I think the revolutionary war was HUGE

Whose life do you think you have had the biggest impact on?
My little sister Anna or Ofy

What are the top three things you hope to do before you die?
Publish a book of my photography, have a family, and to say I truly enjoyed life

Ruth Pregnancy stats

Dec 18 - HCG Beta 29, 
Dec 21 - HCG Beta 114, 
Dec 29 - HCG Beta 1000, Prog 15.58, 
Dec 31 - HCG 1615. Prog 40.53
January 8, 2010 - Ultrasound, 5mm baby and HR 90 BPM, 
January 15 - HB 141 YEAH, ordered doppler
February 1 - U/S looks great 174 HB
March 4 - Heard HB on doppler for the first time
April 18 - Ruth born 21 weeks

Angel Sayings

Some people only dream of angels, I held one in my arms

If tears could build a stairway,
And memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to Heaven
And bring you home again.

Last thing at night, send them love,
and with the dawn more again.
for the bonds will never be broken,
and that love will remind you
they still exist

God gave the most precious gift to me~ As He did so he whispered so tenderly, "This child I give you is not yours to keep, When I call her Home, please do not weep.

For I will take her by the hand, across my bridge of love, Together we will fly to my Golden Gates above, Where she can play in the sand, as soft as a sigh, The sun will always shine on her, in a summer blue sky, Her playmates will be Angels with gossamer wings, Her own spiritual mother, a sweet lullaby sings, I'll welcome home, this child, so precious in my sight, She'll be safe at last, a child of Gods light.

So do not grieve when the time comes, she's forever in my care, Behind Heavens Doorway, she'll wait for you there"


An angel in the book of life wrote down my baby's birth. Then whispered as she closed the book, "Too beautiful for Earth."

Not flesh of my flesh
Nor bone of my bone,
But still miraculously my own
Never forget for a single minute,
You didn't grow under my heart,
But in it

DIY Baby legs

I have always thought baby legs were just absolutely adorable, so today I finally decided to make a set. I am obsessed with knee high socks, so I bought two pair today at Target, and I made my first two sets of baby legs. I did have a couple mishaps while sewing, but no biggie, you can't even tell. I really hope they fir my little cousin I am testing them on. I made one pair with a full cuff and one with a much smaller cuff. Not sure yet which I prefer.

Here they are. Aren't they just the cutest?

Back to topic

So I started this blog to have a place to "get it all out" about our troubles starting a family, but I also want to keep this after our family comes along. I want to document our life ana have our far away family feel as though they are apart of the everyday life stuff. I haven't given my blog address to anyone yet, but eventually I will. I still have a lt to update.

Anyway, I haven't been posting about our struggles yet, so I think its time I get back to the topic of the blog.

I have recently taken all of our baby clothes up to one of the spare rooms here. It is the ?Mirror Room" as we have labeled it. This room is the only one that touches our room, but it also doesn't get direct sun in the morning. I have already decided (for now anyway) that this is the room I want to be the nursery. In our last house here in CA, I didn't bring any of the baby stuff in. But it didn't help much. I just spend many days looking through it all in the garage instead. So this time, I am not holding back. I brought it all in the house. That WILL be my babies room one way or another, so why not put it in its place now?

But when it comes to baby things, I have an obsession. I can't help but looking through it all and thinking about my little girl or boy wearing that dress, or that pajama set. I will admit, its mostly dreams of a little girl though. Our first pregnancy I thought it was a girl, our last one was a girl, and well I have a TON of little girl clothes.

We have already chosen when we will be starting our next round of IVF, so now I look at each piece and think, will she fit in this one at the right season? If she is small this one might fit. I can't really help it, but it makes the days a little easier. Occasionally I will pull something out to donate to good will but for the most part the stash just grows. I also love looking at different coordination's of outfits to see what I like together. I even have been known to look at them and see which ones would be cute together, if we had twins. Obsession, I know.

But I really can't help it, its the only way I know how to look ahead at the future.

Lately I have felt cooped up in the house. For our Anniversary Tim bought me a couple new lenses for my camera. One happened to be a macro lens. This lens isn't for my business, but for fun. So I was pretty excited. So Thursday I decided to go out and have a little fun. But when I left the house, I ran into some bad weather. I didn't want to drive all the way out there for crappy weather. So I went shopping instead. Well after a few hours of shopping I decided to give it a go. I drove the extra 40 minutes to get to The Arboretum in Los Angeles, CA. I have to say though, I was a little disappointed. I couldn't believe how many of the plants and flowers were dead. So I walked around for a bit, struggling to get into the swing of things with my new lens.



I wandered the grounds for a bit snapping pictures but struggling. I couldn't seem to get the focus on and with the wind, it just made it harder. I didn't walk very far, and I looked at the map to see that the place was HUGE compared to where I had walked. So I think I will want to go back, but with better shoes for walking next time.

So at first glance, these are a few of my favorite shots.