40 week appt

SO I weighed in at 199 
BP was 133/70 a little high on the top for me
still only 3cm and thin (no % effacement today) -2 station

The dr thinks I am very favorable to being induced. I go back Monday for another NST and fluid check. Then he wants to induce on Wednesday - 41 weeks for me.

I am slightly discouraged and feel like we should just go get induced if thats the inevitable anyway. This baby doesn't feel anymore ready to come out then he did 3 weeks ago. He is content in there. 

So whatever, it is what it is. Im no longer even having noticeable contractions. During todays NST I noticed a lot of little ones on the screen and one that was about a 3/10 on the monitor. That was the only one I felt and I told Tim I don't even count those as a contraction when I feel them. I swear the ones I had been having were at least a 5 on their monitor, and they started a little as soon as we left.

Again - feeling defeated

Decisions about induction

Ok, so I am 40 weeks tomorrow and still no baby. I have been 3cm since 37 weeks and last week I was 70% effaced. This week I have had the least amount of contractions and goop compared to the last 3 weeks. I am little disappointed. Don't get me wrong, I feel fine, but I really want to meet him. My mom and sister are also here from Michigan and have to leave in a couple weeks. 

Anyway, last week they were pushing induction again. The dr expected this to be a large baby which scares me. If I get induced I lose my natural labor I wanted and will end up getting an epidural because of the pitocin. I am so scared of not progressing fast enough and being pushed into a c-section. However, if I want too long then I worry about baby being too big and having to still have a c-section. 

I just don't know what to do. I don't want to be induced for the wrong reason and I am just so torn. DH thinks I should just go for it though
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