40 week update

Well it's my due date. Should I be excited? Maybe. I feel defeated still with no progress really. No contractions lately. But I have my induction scheduled and by this time next week I'll be holding my little man whose yet to be named. 

Weight 199.8 (weighed after a shower and again after drying my hair lol)

I feel ok. Pee 30 times a day, struggle to be comfortable, can't finish a full meal, wince with every kick and movement, and am emotional. I still love it. And I know it's almost over. It doesn't feel real yet. I feel a lot slower these days but in keeping up just with a few more breaks. I've been exhausted for about a week now. 

Yesterday I tried using my pump to induce contractions with minimal luck. Only had a couple contractions total. And my nipples were already sore so it didn't help any. Took a bath to relax too and that felt great. Today took a shower to get ready and sure enough at exactly 40 weeks I have stretch marks that are new. First ones this pregnancy. 

Trying to love the last few days. It can be hard. But I do love this belly and having him all to myself. Can't wait to see his little face and touch him. 

No progress

Today I had another NST. All looked good. Baby moved nicely and I even had a contraction. Babys HB spiked, then dropped, and steadied back out. It wasn't a strong contraction either. But dr was happy with it. My OB checked me, and no progress. Its so frustrating. He stripped my membranes Thursday and I had a lot of contractions that night, some Friday night but they stopped before I went to bed, all Saturday night and woke up several times to them, then all morning through early afternoon Sunday. Seriously I had a LOT of contractions and absolutely no progress.

I feel like my body is failing me yet again. Yes I can wait it out longer but why? My body fails me with getting pregnant. My body fails me to stay pregnant. I struggle so hard to have these babies, and now my body is failing to go into labor like it should. I know due dates are just an estimate, but still - no progress has me pretty bummed out right now.

The OB I like only does inductions on Wednesdays. He said he would induce me this week if I wanted, or next week. If I decide I want to go ahead this week, then he said just to call and set it up. I could hold my baby in just 2 days. Otherwise I will be holding my little man in 9 days. Either way he is close.

40 week appt

SO I weighed in at 199 
BP was 133/70 a little high on the top for me
still only 3cm and thin (no % effacement today) -2 station

The dr thinks I am very favorable to being induced. I go back Monday for another NST and fluid check. Then he wants to induce on Wednesday - 41 weeks for me.

I am slightly discouraged and feel like we should just go get induced if thats the inevitable anyway. This baby doesn't feel anymore ready to come out then he did 3 weeks ago. He is content in there. 

So whatever, it is what it is. Im no longer even having noticeable contractions. During todays NST I noticed a lot of little ones on the screen and one that was about a 3/10 on the monitor. That was the only one I felt and I told Tim I don't even count those as a contraction when I feel them. I swear the ones I had been having were at least a 5 on their monitor, and they started a little as soon as we left.

Again - feeling defeated

Decisions about induction

Ok, so I am 40 weeks tomorrow and still no baby. I have been 3cm since 37 weeks and last week I was 70% effaced. This week I have had the least amount of contractions and goop compared to the last 3 weeks. I am little disappointed. Don't get me wrong, I feel fine, but I really want to meet him. My mom and sister are also here from Michigan and have to leave in a couple weeks. 

Anyway, last week they were pushing induction again. The dr expected this to be a large baby which scares me. If I get induced I lose my natural labor I wanted and will end up getting an epidural because of the pitocin. I am so scared of not progressing fast enough and being pushed into a c-section. However, if I want too long then I worry about baby being too big and having to still have a c-section. 

I just don't know what to do. I don't want to be induced for the wrong reason and I am just so torn. DH thinks I should just go for it though
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