So I started this blog to have a place to "get it all out" about our troubles starting a family, but I also want to keep this after our family comes along. I want to document our life ana have our far away family feel as though they are apart of the everyday life stuff. I haven't given my blog address to anyone yet, but eventually I will. I still have a lt to update.
Anyway, I haven't been posting about our struggles yet, so I think its time I get back to the topic of the blog.
I have recently taken all of our baby clothes up to one of the spare rooms here. It is the ?Mirror Room" as we have labeled it. This room is the only one that touches our room, but it also doesn't get direct sun in the morning. I have already decided (for now anyway) that this is the room I want to be the nursery. In our last house here in CA, I didn't bring any of the baby stuff in. But it didn't help much. I just spend many days looking through it all in the garage instead. So this time, I am not holding back. I brought it all in the house. That WILL be my babies room one way or another, so why not put it in its place now?
But when it comes to baby things, I have an obsession. I can't help but looking through it all and thinking about my little girl or boy wearing that dress, or that pajama set. I will admit, its mostly dreams of a little girl though. Our first pregnancy I thought it was a girl, our last one was a girl, and well I have a TON of little girl clothes.
We have already chosen when we will be starting our next round of IVF, so now I look at each piece and think, will she fit in this one at the right season? If she is small this one might fit. I can't really help it, but it makes the days a little easier. Occasionally I will pull something out to donate to good will but for the most part the stash just grows. I also love looking at different coordination's of outfits to see what I like together. I even have been known to look at them and see which ones would be cute together, if we had twins. Obsession, I know.
But I really can't help it, its the only way I know how to look ahead at the future.
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Friday, June 18, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Grey's Anatomy
This week I have decided to watch the seasons of Grey's Anatomy.I haven't ever seen it before and I am definitely loving it so far. I am currently in the third season. Although I feel like a complete dop laughing so hard alone, I don't mind being alone when I cry. Its about all I did yesterday. I can't stop thinking about Ruth.
Yesterday there was an episode that hit me. A woman on there was pregnant with quint girls from IVF. 4 had complications and one in particular was watched. She had the same heart problem that Ruth was diagnosed with. That one really got to me. Then today, another episode and the baby had a diaphragmatic hernia. Again I cried for Ruth and I think of what would have been. I know its just a tv show, but it gives me a little bit of peace. I am at peace with Ruth passing, even though I miss her terribly. Then today, a baby was still born, and the dr had the perfect line. She said "Good things should happen to good people." She was devastated over telling her patient their baby had died, because they were so happy to be having a family.
So Grey's, I have fallen for you. And you give me some subtle comfort.
Yesterday there was an episode that hit me. A woman on there was pregnant with quint girls from IVF. 4 had complications and one in particular was watched. She had the same heart problem that Ruth was diagnosed with. That one really got to me. Then today, another episode and the baby had a diaphragmatic hernia. Again I cried for Ruth and I think of what would have been. I know its just a tv show, but it gives me a little bit of peace. I am at peace with Ruth passing, even though I miss her terribly. Then today, a baby was still born, and the dr had the perfect line. She said "Good things should happen to good people." She was devastated over telling her patient their baby had died, because they were so happy to be having a family.
So Grey's, I have fallen for you. And you give me some subtle comfort.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Ruth's Birth Story
So, on April 18, 2009 Tim and I headed to the hospital in Royal Oak, MI and arrived a little after 7. I had been cramping for about a month, but this was more then normal. The Friday before, we had been to the OB, and he checked my cervix and found that I was starting to dilate.
We filled out some paperwork at the hospital and were put in a room. It took about an hour before the dr was in, but the nurses came and went for more paperwork and some family history. I gowned up and the dr checked me and confirmed I was dilating. The dr that was there was an intern who I met the Wednesday prior. She was a great dr and very compassionate.
They had informed me that because of how early I was, it could take 3-4 days for everything to progress and happen. That scared the crap out of me. Soon after getting there, they gave me an IV, told me no more food, and gave me some pain medication (Nubain) through the IV. This medication kicked in within about a minute. It makes you really dizzy. For me I just couldn't focus so I had to close my eyes. And it made me tired so I slept most of the day.
The nurses came to check on me every 45 minutes or so. While I was on the medication I slept so much and only woke to go to the bathroom. Tim was so great to help me move around. Because of the meds, I was also very uneasy on my feet, so he was great to help me walk. The nurse kept asking how the pain was, but at first I had none and after a few hours it was just mild cramping. Tim went to get food while I slept and he was able to get breakfast and lunch at the hospital. Around 4, I told the nurse my pain was a little too much to bare and I asked for more of the Nubain. They were able to order it and get it in by about 4:30. The dr (resident and my OB) checked and said I was 2cm dilated. I was so worried that after 8 hours I hadn't moved very much.
So I was given more Nubain, but after an hour the pain was much worse. It wasn't helping me anymore. So the nurse ordered some Morphine. That should have worked right away. They put 1/2 in the IV and 1/2 IM in my thigh. It did NOTHING. At this point I was starting to get really nauseous. I couldn't even keep my eyes open. The nurse kept asking if I wanted an epidural, but I was terrified that if I was going to be there a couple days, I didn't want to be stuck in bed. So I said no, again.
The nurse said she had one more option in terms of IV meds. It took at least 30 minutes to set it all up, but it was a pump that they hooked up, and I could press a button it administer more. This started to work after about 3 pumps on my part and one or two from the nurse. Now all day I had to pee a TON from all the IV fluids. I had also had the urge to poop, but thank you pregnancy, it wasn't working. So I felt the need to poop and decided to try again. Tim walked me to the bathroom and I peed a ton but when I tried to poop, I could feel Ruth moving. I told the nurse and she wanted me right back in the bed. So I was escorted back to the bed. No one believed I was ready to push because just before when they checked I was only 2cm dilated.
So the OB set me on the bed and wanted to check me again. Then he told me to give him a push. Since I felt it was time, I gave it all my might and I pushed. He quickly had me stop to get everything ready. Then he told me I could push again and out she came. She was still inside the amniotic sac. My sac never burst and my water didn't break. I assume its because there was almost no water inside. After she was out I instantly felt better. I didn't think I was going to throw up anymore, thank goodness.
So the nurses and one of the dr's took Ruth to the little bed thing to look at her. She was born alive, but wasn't breathing. Her heart beat was really slow but she was alive. The nurse left me push when I felt the urge and I was just passing blog clots, no tissue. The dr was very worried about me bleeding bad and needing a D&E. But after just a few pushes I past the placenta with no issues. I had a few clots and some bleeding but there was no tissue and not much cramping. They gave me some pitocin in my IV to help my uterus cramp to make sure everything came out.
After a little bit they let me hold Ruth. Tim had already gone over to look at her, but I was just sitting there. They brought her over and I got to hold her. She was SO tiny, but really it was all just a shock. They took little footprints of her that were just so sweet. The nurse took some pictures, but then Tim gave me my camera so I could take a bunch. They came out SO precious.
After about an hour, they came in to check on Ruth, she had passed. I think I knew it because I noticed her skin started looking different. It almost looked like it was drooping from her face. They let me hold her again, and this is when I took pictures of her outside her dress. I made sure to take pictures of her arm that didn't grow, and tried to capture the bulge in her chest. She has so many issues, but she was still perfect.
That night we were able to go home, I was so pleased I didn't have to spend the night. We got so lucky that there were no complications. So I got to sleep in my own bed that night.
We filled out some paperwork at the hospital and were put in a room. It took about an hour before the dr was in, but the nurses came and went for more paperwork and some family history. I gowned up and the dr checked me and confirmed I was dilating. The dr that was there was an intern who I met the Wednesday prior. She was a great dr and very compassionate.
They had informed me that because of how early I was, it could take 3-4 days for everything to progress and happen. That scared the crap out of me. Soon after getting there, they gave me an IV, told me no more food, and gave me some pain medication (Nubain) through the IV. This medication kicked in within about a minute. It makes you really dizzy. For me I just couldn't focus so I had to close my eyes. And it made me tired so I slept most of the day.
The nurses came to check on me every 45 minutes or so. While I was on the medication I slept so much and only woke to go to the bathroom. Tim was so great to help me move around. Because of the meds, I was also very uneasy on my feet, so he was great to help me walk. The nurse kept asking how the pain was, but at first I had none and after a few hours it was just mild cramping. Tim went to get food while I slept and he was able to get breakfast and lunch at the hospital. Around 4, I told the nurse my pain was a little too much to bare and I asked for more of the Nubain. They were able to order it and get it in by about 4:30. The dr (resident and my OB) checked and said I was 2cm dilated. I was so worried that after 8 hours I hadn't moved very much.
So I was given more Nubain, but after an hour the pain was much worse. It wasn't helping me anymore. So the nurse ordered some Morphine. That should have worked right away. They put 1/2 in the IV and 1/2 IM in my thigh. It did NOTHING. At this point I was starting to get really nauseous. I couldn't even keep my eyes open. The nurse kept asking if I wanted an epidural, but I was terrified that if I was going to be there a couple days, I didn't want to be stuck in bed. So I said no, again.
The nurse said she had one more option in terms of IV meds. It took at least 30 minutes to set it all up, but it was a pump that they hooked up, and I could press a button it administer more. This started to work after about 3 pumps on my part and one or two from the nurse. Now all day I had to pee a TON from all the IV fluids. I had also had the urge to poop, but thank you pregnancy, it wasn't working. So I felt the need to poop and decided to try again. Tim walked me to the bathroom and I peed a ton but when I tried to poop, I could feel Ruth moving. I told the nurse and she wanted me right back in the bed. So I was escorted back to the bed. No one believed I was ready to push because just before when they checked I was only 2cm dilated.
So the OB set me on the bed and wanted to check me again. Then he told me to give him a push. Since I felt it was time, I gave it all my might and I pushed. He quickly had me stop to get everything ready. Then he told me I could push again and out she came. She was still inside the amniotic sac. My sac never burst and my water didn't break. I assume its because there was almost no water inside. After she was out I instantly felt better. I didn't think I was going to throw up anymore, thank goodness.
So the nurses and one of the dr's took Ruth to the little bed thing to look at her. She was born alive, but wasn't breathing. Her heart beat was really slow but she was alive. The nurse left me push when I felt the urge and I was just passing blog clots, no tissue. The dr was very worried about me bleeding bad and needing a D&E. But after just a few pushes I past the placenta with no issues. I had a few clots and some bleeding but there was no tissue and not much cramping. They gave me some pitocin in my IV to help my uterus cramp to make sure everything came out.
After a little bit they let me hold Ruth. Tim had already gone over to look at her, but I was just sitting there. They brought her over and I got to hold her. She was SO tiny, but really it was all just a shock. They took little footprints of her that were just so sweet. The nurse took some pictures, but then Tim gave me my camera so I could take a bunch. They came out SO precious.
After about an hour, they came in to check on Ruth, she had passed. I think I knew it because I noticed her skin started looking different. It almost looked like it was drooping from her face. They let me hold her again, and this is when I took pictures of her outside her dress. I made sure to take pictures of her arm that didn't grow, and tried to capture the bulge in her chest. She has so many issues, but she was still perfect.
That night we were able to go home, I was so pleased I didn't have to spend the night. We got so lucky that there were no complications. So I got to sleep in my own bed that night.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Told the RE
I have an appointment next Wednesday to see my RE one last time before I head out to Michigan. I don't feel the need to drive all the way out there just to see my baby one more time on an ultrasound. He can't tell me anything more, so there was no reason to go in. So today I called the office and asked to have Dr Quintero call me back, and he did within 10 minutes of it. So I filled him in on what we found and he felt really bad and apologized. He was asking questions because he offered to do the D&C there at their office, but we won't know results and make a decision before we head for Michigan. But he did say that he will keep with my plan, since we paid for two cycles.
I thought that was really awesome.
So thats that, I had lots of dreams last night, and was able to sleep in.
I thought that was really awesome.
So thats that, I had lots of dreams last night, and was able to sleep in.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
CVS test
Ok, so my CVS test was able to be done today, even though we just had the NT Scan yesterday. We should have he results in about 7-10 days. We talked with the genetics councilor and we still have no idea what this is because there is honestly NOTHING in mine or dh's family history. So we did the CVS to test chromosomes and have a more definitive idea of whats going on.
However, the dr at this office also did a scan, they measured the NT again and it was a little larget at 4.5 mm. The HB was 151 today and baby was kicking around. They never got a great view of the shorter arm but they did notice it. However its still very hard to see how abnormal it is. The Dr also mentioned he thinks there might be a club foot. We won't really know for sure or how bad till the 20 week ultrasound when they can do a comprehensive ultrasound of limps when baby is larger.
Ok, and on top of that, he mentioned there is a problem with the heart, and even the tech noticed it. They said something about it being off axis, but didn't really explain. He said once we know where the chromosomes are we can have an U/S to look at it closely and see how it developes. Right now its just too small and underdeveloped to really see whats wrong with it. Then I will have to have a 22 week echocardiogram to really go in-depth to look at the heart.
So DH and I are talking. I will load pics later to show you what we are talking about, but we can't see the feet. We are discussing different scenarios, and if everything is the issue (feet, arm, heart, and chromosomes) then we have to decide about things like how many surgeries that would be and what kind of life it will be. We both agree we could handle DS, but anything like trisomy 13 and 18, they just don't offer any kind of life for this baby.
So that is where we stand right now. I appreciate all the prayers we can have, we really need them right now.
I am on bedrest for two days after the CVS. They had to go through my abdomen because of where the placenta was located, but it wasn't terrible. There was a lot of cramping, but it went fairley quick. I even got to see the tissue sample, and that was kind of neat.
Oh and we learned that the NT enlargement could be a sign of a heart issue, and there is a chance that nothing is wrong with the babies chromosomes.
However, the dr at this office also did a scan, they measured the NT again and it was a little larget at 4.5 mm. The HB was 151 today and baby was kicking around. They never got a great view of the shorter arm but they did notice it. However its still very hard to see how abnormal it is. The Dr also mentioned he thinks there might be a club foot. We won't really know for sure or how bad till the 20 week ultrasound when they can do a comprehensive ultrasound of limps when baby is larger.
Ok, and on top of that, he mentioned there is a problem with the heart, and even the tech noticed it. They said something about it being off axis, but didn't really explain. He said once we know where the chromosomes are we can have an U/S to look at it closely and see how it developes. Right now its just too small and underdeveloped to really see whats wrong with it. Then I will have to have a 22 week echocardiogram to really go in-depth to look at the heart.
So DH and I are talking. I will load pics later to show you what we are talking about, but we can't see the feet. We are discussing different scenarios, and if everything is the issue (feet, arm, heart, and chromosomes) then we have to decide about things like how many surgeries that would be and what kind of life it will be. We both agree we could handle DS, but anything like trisomy 13 and 18, they just don't offer any kind of life for this baby.
So that is where we stand right now. I appreciate all the prayers we can have, we really need them right now.
I am on bedrest for two days after the CVS. They had to go through my abdomen because of where the placenta was located, but it wasn't terrible. There was a lot of cramping, but it went fairley quick. I even got to see the tissue sample, and that was kind of neat.
Oh and we learned that the NT enlargement could be a sign of a heart issue, and there is a chance that nothing is wrong with the babies chromosomes.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
11 weeks - WOW
How far along: 11 weeks
Total weight gain/loss: 7 pounds
Maternity clothes: Pants, I ripped my only regular pair, so I just switched since it was inevitable
Stretch marks: None yet
Sleep: Wanting more, and can't help but fall asleep earlier.
Best moment this week: I went to register, I know its WAY early, but oh well, I will adjust and rearrange them when the time gets closer.
Movement: Not yet
Food cravings: This week nothing really sounds good, but I am still hooked on chicken noodle soup, Lipton brand
Gender: Not sure yet, thinking girl
Labor Signs: too soon
Belly Button in or out: In
What I miss: My sex drive
What I am looking forward to: The NT scan ultrasound next week, can you imagine, I get to watch my bean for over an hour on the screen
Weekly Wisdom: I have learned my hormones make me crazy, and I just need to keep my mouth closed sometimes.
Milestones: Nothing i can think of
Total weight gain/loss: 7 pounds
Maternity clothes: Pants, I ripped my only regular pair, so I just switched since it was inevitable
Stretch marks: None yet
Sleep: Wanting more, and can't help but fall asleep earlier.
Best moment this week: I went to register, I know its WAY early, but oh well, I will adjust and rearrange them when the time gets closer.
Movement: Not yet
Food cravings: This week nothing really sounds good, but I am still hooked on chicken noodle soup, Lipton brand
Gender: Not sure yet, thinking girl
Labor Signs: too soon
Belly Button in or out: In
What I miss: My sex drive
What I am looking forward to: The NT scan ultrasound next week, can you imagine, I get to watch my bean for over an hour on the screen
Weekly Wisdom: I have learned my hormones make me crazy, and I just need to keep my mouth closed sometimes.
Milestones: Nothing i can think of
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Pregnancy Symptoms
At this point, the bold is what I am feeling. We will see how this changes and what is true in my case.
It's a boy if:
You didn't experience morning sickness in early pregnancy (started and ended about 9 weeks)
Your baby's heart rate is less than 140 beats per minute
You are carrying the extra weight out front
Your belly looks like a basketball
Your areolas have darkened considerably
You are carrying low
You are craving salty or sour foods
You are craving protein -- meats and cheese
Your feet are colder than they were before pregnancy
The hair on your legs has grown faster during pregnancy
Your hands are very dry
Your pillow faces north when you sleep
Dad-to-be is gaining weight, right along with you
Pregnancy has you looking better than ever
Your urine is bright yellow in color
Your nose is spreading
You hang your wedding ring over your belly and it moves in circles You are having headaches
You add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you conceived and the sum is an even number
It's a girl if:
You had morning sickness early in pregnancy
Your baby's heart rate is at least 140 beats per minute (174 bpm)
You are carrying the weight in your hips and rear
Your left breast is larger than your right breast
Your hair develops red highlights
You are carrying high
Your belly looks like a watermelon
You are craving sweets
You are craving fruit
You crave orange juice
You don't look quite as good as normal during pregnancy
You are moodier than usual during pregnancy
Your face breaks out more than usualYou refuse to eat the heel of a loaf of bread
Your breasts have really blossomed!
Your pillow faces south when you sleep
Your urine is a dull yellow color
You hang your wedding ring over your belly and it moves from side to side
You add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you conceived and the sum is an odd number
I am not fully feeling the effects of constipation and the morning sickness I was feeling for such a short time, has passed.
It's a boy if:
You didn't experience morning sickness in early pregnancy (started and ended about 9 weeks)
Your baby's heart rate is less than 140 beats per minute
You are carrying the extra weight out front
Your belly looks like a basketball
Your areolas have darkened considerably
You are carrying low
You are craving salty or sour foods
You are craving protein -- meats and cheese
Your feet are colder than they were before pregnancy
The hair on your legs has grown faster during pregnancy
Your hands are very dry
Your pillow faces north when you sleep
Dad-to-be is gaining weight, right along with you
Pregnancy has you looking better than ever
Your urine is bright yellow in color
Your nose is spreading
You hang your wedding ring over your belly and it moves in circles You are having headaches
You add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you conceived and the sum is an even number
It's a girl if:
You had morning sickness early in pregnancy
Your baby's heart rate is at least 140 beats per minute (174 bpm)
You are carrying the weight in your hips and rear
Your left breast is larger than your right breast
Your hair develops red highlights
You are carrying high
Your belly looks like a watermelon
You are craving sweets
You are craving fruit
You crave orange juice
You don't look quite as good as normal during pregnancy
You are moodier than usual during pregnancy
Your face breaks out more than usualYou refuse to eat the heel of a loaf of bread
Your breasts have really blossomed!
Your pillow faces south when you sleep
Your urine is a dull yellow color
You hang your wedding ring over your belly and it moves from side to side
You add your age at the time of conception and the number for the month you conceived and the sum is an odd number
I am not fully feeling the effects of constipation and the morning sickness I was feeling for such a short time, has passed.
Monday, February 1, 2010
10w1d Ultrasound
So we went in for my apointment, and everything looks great. The HB was 174 and sounded SO neat. The baby is still measuring a week behind at 9w0d.
Here are the pics, the dr was able to even point out the lips.
This is my favorite
HEre is the umbilical cord
Here are the pics, the dr was able to even point out the lips.
This is my favorite
HEre is the umbilical cord
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Back to the Dr
Ok, so I got to see the dr first thing in the morning, and on New Years Eve. They did and ultrasound and saw a sac and a yolk this time. The dr didn't seem worried at all espically since it appeared larger then the last time. I am still scared though.
I then got a call back with my numbers. HCG is 1615 and Progesteron was 40.53. It was up from the 1000 and 15.58 previously, but not enough to ease my mind.
Now we just wait till the next appointment, Friday next week the 8th of January.
I then got a call back with my numbers. HCG is 1615 and Progesteron was 40.53. It was up from the 1000 and 15.58 previously, but not enough to ease my mind.
Now we just wait till the next appointment, Friday next week the 8th of January.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
I think its over
I started bleeding again today but now it is bright red and some small clots. I am beside myself now. I knew something wasn't right. I am calling the dr right now, but I don't feel good, even though I had ok numbers today.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Gosh dangit
Ok, I am going to join the group freaking out, I started bleeding tonight. I am praying I can get in to be sen tomorrow because I can't handle the stress. I am cramping but I am contributing it to the constipation. The blood is brown in color and doesn't seem to be "flowing" so I know that is good. But it wasn't just a tiny bit either. So I put on a panty liner to see how much I am actually losing just to know. At this moment I am really upset because I am not ready for this to end, its just not fair. We wait way to long to get here and spent $20,000 to get pregnant I just want this baby to be healthy.
Update: I have an appointment today at 2pm, but at the closer office, so I will likely be home by about 3:30 today hopefully with good news. And the spotting has gone down and the cramps are no longer. I am praying this is a good sign. I think this could have been because we had sex the night before, who knows though.
Update after appt: So I had an ultrasound and bloodwork. I won't get the results till tomorrow afternoon probably. But there was a sac and only one baby. So we know that much. We will know things are ok tomorrow after we get the levels back from the blood. So yeah thats all we know so far.
Update: So the dr office called me back. My hcg is at 1000, not exactly as high as I had hoped. My progesterone was at 15.58 so they are upping my nightly injections to 1.5cc (50% increase). I am now even more worried and praying this bean has a heartbeat come Friday next week.
Update: I have an appointment today at 2pm, but at the closer office, so I will likely be home by about 3:30 today hopefully with good news. And the spotting has gone down and the cramps are no longer. I am praying this is a good sign. I think this could have been because we had sex the night before, who knows though.
Update after appt: So I had an ultrasound and bloodwork. I won't get the results till tomorrow afternoon probably. But there was a sac and only one baby. So we know that much. We will know things are ok tomorrow after we get the levels back from the blood. So yeah thats all we know so far.
Update: So the dr office called me back. My hcg is at 1000, not exactly as high as I had hoped. My progesterone was at 15.58 so they are upping my nightly injections to 1.5cc (50% increase). I am now even more worried and praying this bean has a heartbeat come Friday next week.
Monday, December 21, 2009
IVF Recap
November 18 - AF starts, called new RE to start IVF (a week early)
November 20 - u/s, Ganirelix - 250mcg
November 22 - Ganirelix - 250mcg
November 23-27 - Follistim 300 iu
November 28 - Follistim 300 iu, Luveris 75 iu
November 29 - Follistim 300 iu, Luveris 75 iu
November 30 - Follistim 225 iu, Luveris 75 iu, u/s 14 egs on one side and 8 on the other. Largest 15mm and two at 13mm
December 1 - Follistim 225 iu, Luveris 75 iu, Ganirelix - 125mcg
December 2 - Follistim 75 iu, Ganirelix - 125mcg, u/s - 25 eggs most measuring 15-16mm
December 4 - Estrogen - 3923 and HCG trigger shot
December 6 - retrevial of 21 eggs, Started Progesterone injections
December 7 - 19 eggs ICSI'd - 6 fertilized, Progesterone
December 8 - Started Medrol, Progesteronee
December 9 - 6 embryos made it, put in 2-8 celled ones and froze the other 4
December 18 - Bloodwork - HCG Beta 29
December 21 - Bloodwork - HCG Beta 114
November 20 - u/s, Ganirelix - 250mcg
November 22 - Ganirelix - 250mcg
November 23-27 - Follistim 300 iu
November 28 - Follistim 300 iu, Luveris 75 iu
November 29 - Follistim 300 iu, Luveris 75 iu
November 30 - Follistim 225 iu, Luveris 75 iu, u/s 14 egs on one side and 8 on the other. Largest 15mm and two at 13mm
December 1 - Follistim 225 iu, Luveris 75 iu, Ganirelix - 125mcg
December 2 - Follistim 75 iu, Ganirelix - 125mcg, u/s - 25 eggs most measuring 15-16mm
December 4 - Estrogen - 3923 and HCG trigger shot
December 6 - retrevial of 21 eggs, Started Progesterone injections
December 7 - 19 eggs ICSI'd - 6 fertilized, Progesterone
December 8 - Started Medrol, Progesteronee
December 9 - 6 embryos made it, put in 2-8 celled ones and froze the other 4
December 18 - Bloodwork - HCG Beta 29
December 21 - Bloodwork - HCG Beta 114
Beta results and talked to dr
Ok so I got my beta results, she said they were good, but she said they doubled, but in m book they did more then that, but again, I don't really understand beta #'s.
12 DPO - 29
15 DPO - 114
You tell me, I have no clue, but she said it was good so thats all that matters.
I have an appointment for the 5th of January, which sucks, I didn't want to have to wait that long, but I guess I have to (insert grumpy face here). So we will get to see the bean at about 6 1/2 weeks, hopefully we will know forsure if there is one or two in there.
My other questions were asking if its ok to resume sex, he said yes, Tim is very happy about this news.
I asked about the extra streength tylonol, he said that was fine, even at the full dose.
Also, I have MTHFR but I don't know which mutation, so he is putting me on Folguard to suppliment the folic acid, because my body can't process and absorb it like normal. SO this makes me happy because I really need this bean to be healthy. And I am to resume my progesterone in oil shots in the butt, YEAH.
So now we just wait.
12 DPO - 29
15 DPO - 114
You tell me, I have no clue, but she said it was good so thats all that matters.
I have an appointment for the 5th of January, which sucks, I didn't want to have to wait that long, but I guess I have to (insert grumpy face here). So we will get to see the bean at about 6 1/2 weeks, hopefully we will know forsure if there is one or two in there.
My other questions were asking if its ok to resume sex, he said yes, Tim is very happy about this news.
I asked about the extra streength tylonol, he said that was fine, even at the full dose.
Also, I have MTHFR but I don't know which mutation, so he is putting me on Folguard to suppliment the folic acid, because my body can't process and absorb it like normal. SO this makes me happy because I really need this bean to be healthy. And I am to resume my progesterone in oil shots in the butt, YEAH.
So now we just wait.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Friday, December 18, 2009
Beta results
This morning I went into the lab to get m blod taken for a beta. I still wasn't feeling like I was pregnant, but it turns out, I AM! I asked when my dr would get the results and the lady told me it wouldn't be until about 4pm. So when 4L45 rolled around I called the dr's office because I wanted to know before they closed for the day. While I was out I also had bought a HPT. Well Tim got home and I was waiting for a call back from the nurse, and he told me to just go pee on a stick. I honestly thought it was way too early to test espically on a home one. Well before I was done peeing I could see a second line. But I didn't let on, then I sat at the computer, and the phone rang. I answered and at this point I already saw the HPT, but waited for her confirmation. Good news, everything worked. So we are pregnant. And my beta was a 29. Not sure how good it is, but everyones reactions are pretty good towards it. I am SO pleased, but it hasn't really sunk in yet.
EDD August 28, 2010 - works for me.
Days Pregnant:3 weeks 6 days
Days left: 253
Pregnancy symptoms: So far the only symptom I have, gas, and sometimes I am a little extra tired, no issues with that.
EDD August 28, 2010 - works for me.
Days Pregnant:3 weeks 6 days
Days left: 253
Pregnancy symptoms: So far the only symptom I have, gas, and sometimes I am a little extra tired, no issues with that.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Could it be?
SO for the past few days I haven't felt like things have worked and really at this point it doesn't feel like I am pregnant.
But (and I know I might be grasping at straws) today I had the tiniest bit of spotting when I went to the bathroom. I had on black underwear so I don't know if there is any more. And all day I have had this pukey feeling. Its more then I was just hungry too. At first I thought it was from hunger, but I have been eating all day, and I had plenty. But at first I assumed hunger because I had only had donuts for breakfast, and I was pukey feeling by 11am. Then I had a hot dog and mac and cheese for lunch, some pretzels, a pop, and fruit snacks. Still pukey. and then I had more fruit snacks and some baby oranges, still pukey.
So could it be? Could these really be the first signs of a possible pregnancy? I really truly hope so. So far this is all I am feeling.
As for if its a period, today I had gone potty more like a diarrhea which is normal when my period is about to start, and not normal with a pregnancy.
So, two more days till I get my beta's.
But (and I know I might be grasping at straws) today I had the tiniest bit of spotting when I went to the bathroom. I had on black underwear so I don't know if there is any more. And all day I have had this pukey feeling. Its more then I was just hungry too. At first I thought it was from hunger, but I have been eating all day, and I had plenty. But at first I assumed hunger because I had only had donuts for breakfast, and I was pukey feeling by 11am. Then I had a hot dog and mac and cheese for lunch, some pretzels, a pop, and fruit snacks. Still pukey. and then I had more fruit snacks and some baby oranges, still pukey.
So could it be? Could these really be the first signs of a possible pregnancy? I really truly hope so. So far this is all I am feeling.
As for if its a period, today I had gone potty more like a diarrhea which is normal when my period is about to start, and not normal with a pregnancy.
So, two more days till I get my beta's.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Transfer Day
Thankfully Tim could take me and all 6 eggs made it to today. I was so worried. He brought us into the office and my heart sunk. He said we have 3-8 cell, 1-7 cell, 1-5 cell, and I don't remember what the last one was, but I think it was a 5 cell. So we decided to put 2 of the 8 cells back in and freeze the remaining 4. If this doesn't work, he is willing to put 4 back in next time. I am still taking my progesterone and if we get the long awaited BFP then I will take it up till the 10 week point.
Thats a little scary only because I can't reach my butt to do it myself, so Tim, get ready, you are needed to poke me with a shot each night. (Totally worth it)
I am so excited, its all I can think about. Now I am off to chill with my tivo and let things settle in. I am SO ready to know already. Here's to the longest 2ww of my life.
I go in for blood work on the 18th which is only 9 days away, and again on the 21st. We will have a more definite answer on the 21st after watching the numbers change.
Thats a little scary only because I can't reach my butt to do it myself, so Tim, get ready, you are needed to poke me with a shot each night. (Totally worth it)
I am so excited, its all I can think about. Now I am off to chill with my tivo and let things settle in. I am SO ready to know already. Here's to the longest 2ww of my life.
I go in for blood work on the 18th which is only 9 days away, and again on the 21st. We will have a more definite answer on the 21st after watching the numbers change.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Still Hurting
So I had the retrieval on Sunday, ever since I have had this feeling of constipation and almost like I pulled a bad muscle in my abs area. Now I have IBS and going potty is never an issue, and that part is still pretty normal, other then it hurts in my abs when I actually go to the bathroom. My ovaries were empties yet I am still peeing all the time.
Now I also noticed that my uterus is still hard as a rock right now. I only get this RIGHT before a period, and I remember it when I was pregnant. Either way. I started my progesterone injetions on Sunday night, along with starting medrol today. But I am just curious if this has anything to do with the progesterone, or what might be happening. I didn't think I would still be hurting this long after the retrieval. And tomorrow I go in for the transfer.
Now I also noticed that my uterus is still hard as a rock right now. I only get this RIGHT before a period, and I remember it when I was pregnant. Either way. I started my progesterone injetions on Sunday night, along with starting medrol today. But I am just curious if this has anything to do with the progesterone, or what might be happening. I didn't think I would still be hurting this long after the retrieval. And tomorrow I go in for the transfer.
Monday, December 7, 2009
update to the "when" question
Well the nurse is who told me that, so I talked to the dr later about our eggs issue, and he said to wait until at least the BFP. HE said we can today and tomorrow but then the transfer is Wednesday and we have to wait. But I am still sore from the retrieval so I am not really interested right now.
DH was freaking out because he is supposed to deploy shortly after that 9 week date
DH was freaking out because he is supposed to deploy shortly after that 9 week date
Dr Called
Well I talked to the dr today, he was great to call me personally instead of having a nurse talk to me. But he said they were all shocked at how few fertilized but he is confident we will have several strong ones by Wednesday.
My feelings were that this could explain why its taking so long, and overjoyed we paid for ICSI and had so many otherwise who knows, we may not have 6. I am honestly surprised how positive I am, I am sort or a pessimistic. I don't want to believe it till its proven true kind of person. but I am really trying to be positive, and its actually working.
Tim is helping to keep me positive though. The dr however said he thinks the issue lies with his sperm and my egg having issues together. Who knows, but I am glad we didn't waste time with any more IUI's.
My feelings were that this could explain why its taking so long, and overjoyed we paid for ICSI and had so many otherwise who knows, we may not have 6. I am honestly surprised how positive I am, I am sort or a pessimistic. I don't want to believe it till its proven true kind of person. but I am really trying to be positive, and its actually working.
Tim is helping to keep me positive though. The dr however said he thinks the issue lies with his sperm and my egg having issues together. Who knows, but I am glad we didn't waste time with any more IUI's.
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